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No EnvyIt's 3 AM  I've let the minutes  stay till the end of time  a few more for good measure   
When I see things clearly  I'm trying to open my eyes  and just see whats there for once  a life without the subtext   
once all the bottles are drunk  and you are into closing hours again  as I close the bedroom door  I pray you will find the answers some how   
you are a dreamer I can tell  when you sleep you go to battle  you're a soldier in Vietnam  a hero for all good nations   
when you finally wake from slumber  I only wish for you to stop pla No Envy
by ~pinkypants
Don't GoI looked into this room  with cotton wool covered eyes  I trod the path you warned against  I always wondered why   
As I grew, in more ways that one  walking and speaking for the first time  You'd stop me from doing lots of dangerous things  Still, I never gave up the will to try!   
As a teenager, I tried to carve out  my own sense of self and identity  I ran away and rejected my past  But they remained a part of me   
As a young woman starting out,  I thought I'd always live life my way,  Little did I know how much I needed you  You had so much wisdom Don't Go
by ~pinkypants
To nothing at allmy friends have been telling me  I can't keep on smiling  It's just not me they say  Well it's not for the sake of trying   
I'm finally doing everything  I knew I should have done at seventeen  But I'm here now singing to myself  reflecting on what my life has been   
every mistake I made was worth it  It was all for a reason really  for everytime I said something I didn't mean  I now forgive myself completely   
Everytime I let myself down  I don't even think about it  Nightmares of all the embaressing things I've done  They don't matter one bit   To nothing at all
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25 months latera sombre tear  aplenty I've shed  holding on  to a beautiful nightmare   
I let go  as the meltdown showed  my heart torn in two  
for you   
the pieces held in place  by something stronger than you or I  something I cannot explain  all I know is that we're here   
I know I'm broken  bruised from the disstain of all that surrounds me  I don't need a saviour  I need you in my life   
there ain't a light in my life  
that shines brighter  I'll always fumble my way back  to new beginnings   
where I meet you halfway   25 months later
by ~pinkypants
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Silent Heckles

Sun Jun 8, 2008, 12:28 PM
One the best bits of advice I have been given in life is choose your battles. Amongst all the other nuggets of information, this one for some reason stands out the most. For the most part, I am a battler - I want to cruisade against the wrong doers. But then again, I am sensitive, and if anyone dares to bite back, it hurts me deeply - in a way that surprises the other person.

So I come back to this over and over my head. Choose your fights, and this one is something I am CHOOSING not to win. In a way that enpowers me, because I am in control of myself, my emotions, my REaction to things rather than my PREACTIVE aggression to people, things, everything...

However, I cant seem to let anyone in still. I cant let anyone know me for fear of rejection yet I reject them before they have a chance to know me, so I become depressed? Sometimes I think that things are nonsensical for women.

Alas, instead I can take some comfort in that I am returning to one aspect of my life.. music. I am currently taking vocal lessons and it has been the best thing I've done for myself in a while. I think its given me some confidence and a good distraction (if only brief) from all the serious stuff in my life.

Take care all xxx
Pinks

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  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: OneRepublic - Say (All I need)
  • Reading: c'est la vie
  • Watching: and waiting for the sun to rise
  • Playing: with my subconscious mostly
  • Eating: whatever my Pete cooked for me
  • Drinking: nothing notable

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  • Current Residence: Swansea, UK
  • Interests: Politics, Freedom & Education
  • Favourite movie: Donnie Darko
  • Favourite band or musician: Five for Fighting, Evanescence, Oasis, RHCP, Within Temptation, Gavin Degraw.. so many!
  • Favourite genre of music: Indie / Soft Rock
  • Favourite artist: Sarah McLachlan
  • Favourite poet or writer: Terry Pratchett
  • Favourite photographer: None really, I like all kinds of photography.
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Samsung E230i
  • Wallpaper of choice: Summer days down the woods
  • Favourite game: Tactical Operations
  • Favourite cartoon character: Family Guy / American Dad
  • Personal Quote: If you don't ask, you don't get!
  • Tools of the Trade: Chocolate, spread.. both at same time ;)

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~DogLuvr4eva Jun 12, 2007, 6:42:54 PM
Thanks for watching!

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=bryden42 May 2, 2007, 10:43:39 AM
Thanks for the watch :)

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"I've been thinking with my guts since forever, and you know what? I've come the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains"
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`switchbladeserenade Mar 20, 2007, 1:24:17 PM
:glomp: Thank you for the :+fav: on KnifeTo Know You

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~plaguethenet Mar 18, 2007, 5:42:33 PM
Thanks for the watch! :)

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I see fallen angels
When i try to go to sleep
And their always watching
Silently preparing
What they'll do to me.
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~GregKrk Aug 2, 2006, 1:43:35 PM
Hello you pretty girl! :)

Remember me?

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~pinkypants Aug 11, 2006, 9:54:35 AM
Heya hun!

I remember you! Where have you been - what you been up to? :)

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~GregKrk Aug 12, 2006, 10:47:04 AM
oh, a lot of things has happened :) been to greece and so on. i'm moving to edinburgh this september. a lot to tell actually... :)

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~jadedemerald May 4, 2006, 7:56:18 PM
thx for the :+fav:

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"You'd better take care of me, Lord . . . because if you don't you're going to have me on your hands. - Hunter S. Thompson

Forever...Jaded :shamrock:
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~RandyZoo Mar 31, 2006, 5:36:44 PM
you have been tagged
send to 10 people not including the person who sent it to u
3 people your close 2
2 people you love
1 person you hate
and 4 you dont know


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I don't know you.. it said tag 4 people you don't know.. you are number three :giggle:

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